Words I Couldn't Say

Flying first class? I think not.

Ever get the feeling the entire world is flying in first class and you're stuck with a folding chair in the baggage compartment?
That's what seems to be happening to me a lot lately.

I've always been the really shy and quiet type and I've always been content with that. I mean I wish I wasn't so shy, but it's something I can't help. That's me. That's how I've been my whole life. Lately, it just feels like it's really been holding me back.

I just feel that I'm left behind a lot of the time. Usually, it's by the people I care most about like friends and even family. Is it because I'm so quiet? Is it because at times I shut the world out?Maybe I'm just scared to face the things I feel. It's easier to walk away from everything. Maybe I'm just scared to get too close to anyone because everyone who said "I'll be there" left...

I manage to deal though.
It's just something I'm good at.
Being happy doesn’t mean everything is perfect.
It means you’ve learned to look past the imperfections.

I've really been working on it though. I've tried to step out of my box more since highschool started than I have in my whole life. It's often hard and uncomfortable, but I seriously try. People just don't understand and see how hard I'm trying sometimes and just keep pushing me to do more and it's difficult.


I'll just have to keep trying I guess until I can finally meet your expectations.

posted by Bailey Ann @ 9:38 PM